2004-07-15 - 4:40 p.m.
WHAT THE HELL? dont even hold this shit against me, not like it matters but im just saying, i have to say this shit so im going to and dont throw it in my face. okay, you know what, i am not perfect, but like i said before NO ONE IS, not one single person. I really am trying to bite my tongue and not say something that i shouldnt but holy hell. what the fuck. I didnt(obviously) get anyone's ass in trouble. The ONLY persons ass who is in trouble is STILL MINE. I dont want to hear that i shouldnt be in the group. if im not wanted, DONT WORRY, i wont be around. so everyone can just chill. I thought that i was for the most part a good friend to everyone, but obviously i was extremely WRONG. You know what i dont understand? How when ive been sitting at home for pretty much the ENTIRE summer, almost everyone can just up and decide that i dont belong anymore, and for what? because i got told i could come to something and asked? geez im sorry, you know what NO ONE knows what its like to be cut off from everything okay? not one person. And most of you like to think you know all about me and who i am and what i think, well only few do, and the rest who i thought understood, decided to join with those who NEVER DID. Thats bull shit, it really is. the ONLY PERSON who should be mad at me isnt, because she really IS the friend i thought she was, and everyone else just decides that Bri is a bitch. Well wonderful, i dont need any of you who arent willing to give my ass a chance. People have done really shitty things to me this year. And you know what, i never retaliated or what not, i just kept on keeping on, being their friend, so excuse me that i messed up and bit the bullet big time, but i came clean, and if i hadnt prolly no one would have found out, but i came clean cuz it was the right thing to do. and im not talkin about the grounding. way to go people for not meeting my expectations, as sad as it is, i guess i have to learn to let go of anything i held dear to me and i cant put faith in people anymore and its TOO DAMN BAD too. because the people that truly do know me, know that i believe in everyone and everything more than i should. Damn this is the summer for learning lessons.This ruined puzzle is beige with the pieces all face down
so the placing goes slowly.
The pictures of anything other than it's meant to be.
But the hours they creep,
the patterns repeat.
Don't be concerned, you know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said "don't go".
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The war - 2005-02-03
Broken - 2005-01-30
Saved Night - 2005-01-28
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