2004-07-19 - 9:41 p.m.
Well, i sit here with my dylan, enjoying a large tub of cookie dough. It has been quite the day. Ive been thru a rainbow of emotions and thoughts, from the dumbest things that have ever run thru my head, to pondering the human god-given purpose on this earth. I have wondered about boys, and i have laughed with friends. Ive freaked out, and ive been educated. I got satisfaction from anothers discomfort, and i found comfort in a poem. And it was pretty much a normal day. The more i get to know myself, the more i can calm the qualities in myself that i despise. Well i realized that no matter what i do, i will always have much faith in every person, no matter how much i think i need to lose said faith. and Guess what? its what makes me happy. i love living in this world of my own where everyone and everything is out to help me and love me. It really doesnt matter how many times this idea gets shattered, i always have the same concept when i wake up in the morning.*It is the nightly custom of every good mother after her children are asleep to rummage in their minds and put things straight for the next morning, repacking into their proper places the many articles that have wandered through the day. If you could keep awake(but of course you cant) you would see your own mother doing this, and you would find it very interesting to watch her...When you wake in the morning, the naughtiness and evil passions with which you went to bed have been folded up small and placed at the bottom of your mind; and on the top, beautifully aired, are spread out your prettier thoughts, ready for you to put on.*
i think The Peter Pan book quotes it best. I tend to overexaggerate about everything too, and i really thought i had something to be upset over, but you know what, things are as good as always, and even if i may not be in the room with the ones i love, i like to think i reside in their hearts, or at least their heads. I always forget that things are NOT as bad as i always make them out to be, until my friends remind me.
Always and Forever Love
Bri
Fun things for today:
Save a horse ride a cowboy
heroes
JELLO
Brie cheese
Blueberry bubble baths
kidnapping
"are you suggesting..."
Dreams really do come true - 2005-02-07
The war - 2005-02-03
Broken - 2005-01-30
Saved Night - 2005-01-28
Best Poem - 2005-01-26
