The worst feeling in the entire world is helplessness.

Truly, when i was sitting on the phone, (more than once mind you and with more than one person) listening to people who mean so much to me be so upset, my heart was breaking in two. I want to lift the world off of their shoulders and fly them to the moon, or somewhere they can be happy again. I hate not being able to do or say anything that will help a damn bit. as sappy as that sounds its true.

Why do people continue to do things that are awful for them and the people around them? I hate the feeling of knowing something is bad for you and going for it anytheway.

Its like an addiction, you KNOW its hurting you more everytime you do said addiction and probably all enjoyment of it is gone anyways, YET you keep going back, why? The familiar isnt always what is needed.

I hate judgement.

People need to give other people chances damnit. So what if first impressions arent always the best. Goes back to that hokey but oh so true saying, "dont judge a book by its cover"

I hate being let down, or watching other people be let down.

Its so unfair. This feeling is damn near closest to the feeling of helplessness, because is essence when being let down, one is helpless. one cannot control the actions of others, sucks eh?

I hate feeling like i have to answer to others(which for the most part is a personal problem) My life is my business.

This one goes back to the judgement thing, you dont know whats going on with the other person. Give them advice fine, but never knock them down for what they feel.

I hate being left out.

so ive left people out before too, but the worst is when you're surrounded by a buncha people and dont feel anyone is your one and only.

Okay the happier feelings of these days

I love feeling needed.

When someone tells you that you are exactly what they needed at the moment or for the day, it is the BEST feeling in the entire world. Its like feeling loved for just that moment. when people have a story just for you, or require a special talent from you only, or need your advice, idk this is what i live for, being needed.

I love being told exactly how it is.

As much as being "called out" can suck, i appreciate the fact that i have friends who will do that to me. Tell me when im being shitty, even when they dont feel like dealing with flakey me.

I love just sitting, existing and knowing that those around you love you.

Comfort. this is that feeling, where you dont have to impress anyone and you can do anything and know that those you're with will love you forever no matter what. ill say it again, comfort.

I love the calm after a storm

I mean this both figuratively and actually. I really do love making up with people after a fight. and i love the peace of the earth as its all dampened and wind blown.

Alright, now love and hate are the some of the strongest words speakable. But feelings are also the strongest form of emotion, actually they are your emotions, so i do think feelings deserve strong words, because they are VERY strong.

Dont take this diary for anything more than its worth. I just had to write