2004-08-19 - 11:24 a.m.
Summer. Its about different things for each person. This summer, for me, has been about several things, and nothing too much of my choosing. Ive been fighting every hand ive been dealt. Ive wasted energy fighting all chains that try to tie me down, all stereo types that have been set on me. I feel like i spend so much time trying so hard NOT to be certain things, that i dont spend anytime actually being me. Me? who is that? I feel like a chameleon who changes to whatever situation or people im with. When i was told I was a flake, however untrue the statement may have been regarding the situation, i really believe my personality can be flakey, considering that im constantly changing. If i asked any one of you, could you tell me who i am? I think everyone would have a completely different answer, and im not so sure that i like that. A very good friend jokingly told me yesterday that im always negative, and while i know it was a joke, i took it to heart, and thought about it, because, honestly, i am. I really try to be all bubbly and giddy about everything all the time, thats the me i love, but lately, idk where she went! Another thing ive spent my summer doing: WORRYING. And do you know what my biggest fear is? the biggest one in the ENTIRE world. worse than dying, being taken from my home, getting less than an A JOKE! lol, but really, im afraid that one morning ill wake up, and all the people ive invested so much time in, will just up and decide that im no longer welcome with them. I guess theres nothing anyone can do really, to ease my fears. i just want to know that when it comes down to the nitty gritty, when theres nothing left but what we've got, when it really counts, you'll all still be there...ALWAYS AND FOREVER LOVE(-i really do mean that every time i write it)
Bri
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