2004-10-30 - 12:51 a.m.
Ive wondered for quite some time now about the various purposes for everything in my life, and now i feel a need to write it down, thanks to the awesome convo i just had with my claire. When i got caught this summer, through all the tears and yelling and shame i couldnt figure out why i had been caught, what the purpose was. And i spent a long time being angry with the world around me, but i think ive finally found my purpose, and no stupid war is going to ruin it, im not a bitch and i refuse to cat fight, got that?Had to get that out, but anyway, my life, since this diary is always about me lol, there were 3 specific areas that i was concerned with. and finally all three, and yes ALL are coming together to form this nice little puzzle i call my life. The pieces are no longer beige, but full of color and the placing is much easier. I feel like i have a goal and a purpose, and i like that. Funny how so many random little things have led to awesomeness in my life, i could name about 4 that just snowballed into wonderful experiences for me, and if you want to know how i grew? well then come talk to me, because im finally ready to talk about it. I guess i never really realized how much inner turmoil it was causing me, until i finally realized that i was ready to speak.
Random, but always relevant quotes:
"Its like fitting a square piece into a circle slot, and the last time i tried rounding the edges to make it fit, the square was slowly destroyed"(Yours truly)
"Boredom is simply and intermission until our real thoughts come back to entertain us again"(Emily Fox)
"Heaven brings to light all things, even what Hell would try to hide"(Me)
"In my heart's sequestered chambers lie truths stripped of poet's gloss. Words alone are vain and vacant, and my heart is mute"(Choir song--Sing me to heaven)
And thats all she wrote
Bri
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