A person can only stay strong for so long right? what if its MY turn to freak out every 5 seconds? what if its my turn to be disconted with my relationships as they are...what if its my turn to make giant mountains, and worry myself to tears. I think whether its my turn or not, its happening, but i keep wearing this mask, and no one knows. I utter my concerns and no one actually hears me. I need to be coaxed, cuddled, calmed...reasoned with relieved. So many things im not getting that i need. so maybe this sounds like bitching but im so exhausted and i dont even think i can sleep because of whats running through my head.