So many questions...and i have very few answers. i think i half expected to tell you and poof, like magic all the pieces of the puzzle would fall into place. not so lucky i guess. And i wasnt prepared for you to question, i thought you would just accept. and now here i sit, knowing that ive just put you between a rock and a hard place, and im sorry. Really, i never meant to cause a problem...

so we both wonder where this all stemmed from, and i wish i knew. Its so weird to me now that i feel this way, but i guess i always did. my best told me, "you forgot to give yourself a chance" and i did, as i do most of the time. I guess relationships scare me alot, for whatever reason, and i chase away those ones which have the most potential. Well, guess what? im done chasing good things away, im ready to give myself, and maybe us, a chance...

I really dont know how you feel about it all. you've been quite vague, but i dont blame you, fear of saying the wrong thing. I have faith in you, and i know i can trust you with anything, if good friends is all we end up, ill be satisfied.

Most of all, thank you. it was hard for me, and i know its hard for you, but you've been great, and i thank you